The peace that comes with chaos.

Our homeschooling/ unschooling journey has certainly been a test of patience, self confidence and ultimately trust.
It has taken us a long time, but we have finally found our rhythm and how beautiful it is. It is not always boxed, it requires going back to start sometimes, but wow, for the first time I truly see it and feel it and love.
Take for instanvce my child's refusal to poay attention to lessons, I was ready to crumble. Flash forward and I have a friend handling one main lesson a week and he is jumping out of his seat to help others. He says he can't read, but I caught him reading. There is such beauty in what we know. We have had group ups and downs, we have sang together, refused to sing together, come home and sang the things we refused to sing together for hours. We have wrestled with demons. We have faltered and stood back up. We have gone through great challenges, but when I look at what we have accomplished I am overjoyed. I am so lucky, so blessed. I have the best circle of humans far and wide.

Trying to be everything to everyone.

Wow. Today I was ready for the day to come to a close and my children to go to sleep.
My older son is fighting sleep - so I actually gave up trying to get him to sleep and left him to his own devices (the next room.) Since he was an infant he has had sleep issues and if we don't parent him to sleep the more likely he is to wake up. But our little one is teething and I need some me time!

We just started homeschooling after our month long trip - 2 weeks in NYC, and two weeks in transit.

It was mainly just me and the kids! What a learning experience. I have been home with them for a year now - making work a much lower priority, and there we were back in the city, needing to put work first.
It felt completely out of sync. I enjoy a healthy work life, but where will my path take me next?

Since we are homeschooling there isn't a whole lot of time for anything else.

Waldorf kindergarten is focused on rhythm, and it is my utmost goal to get it together. It is definitely a big challenge for us. We do have a rhythm - but schedule is a whole other can of worms. Not to mention my husband's work schedule is complicated! And that throws a wrench in.

Looking forward to looking back two months from now!